Feeling a tremendous sadness. I cover it up with anger, hostility, and separateness, but I’ve broken through to the “genuine heart of sadness” to many times now to fool myself for long. When the release comes, it comes in waves, pouring from the heart region, shaking my body violently. Tears stream forth and all I can do is feel into it more deeply.
I realize how afraid I am, in one wave. In the next I realize this fear isn’t just about me. I actually say, “There is a lot a pain, but it isn’t all mine.” Yes, the fear, contraction, and pain of the entire world needs to be felt, but how can I possibly hold it all? The answer: I can’t. I can’t, but that doesn’t mean I won’t try.
In the end, compassion arises in harmony and union with the suffering of the world, all of it acting in and through me. I am a channel for manifestation, both the shadow and light… The witness can stand back and watch, AND this duality demands attention.
